"For You O Lord are a shield about me, You are the glory and lifter of my head. Psalm 3:3

"For You O Lord are a shield about me, You are the glory and lifter of my head. Psalm 3:3

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Almost 30

We celebrated my birthday today...

...and it was lovely, my heart is full to the brim!

Chris threw me a party tonight...a party is balloons and cake...this was a night of blessing and overwhelming joy of love and friendship. My sweet mom and brother came for the weekend, friends drove from Tulsa, leaving babies with sitters to drive round trip 4 hours to have dinner with me.
Love. Love. Love.
Every detail was precious and wonderful. Flowers on each table, my favorite cake, tender words and thoughtful gifts from friends and family.
My Love, thank you for an unforgettably lovely night.

I'm turning 30 tomorrow.
The Lord has been flooding my heart and mind with reflection down to the smallest details and memories.
Examination. It's beautiful, it's challenging, it's life giving.
I've come up with various answers and responses to my pondering.
A lot I don't know. A few things I do know are certain.

One, my Father loves me. I am His beloved. He is a Father to the fatherless. He is the extender of love, life, grace, and joy. I need Him.

Two, I am in love with my husband. He's just plain dreamy to me. He loves me well and pursues me with honor. I am in awe of his patience and love for me. I want a husband like him for my girls some day.

Three, I adore my little girls. There is nothing better than the first minute I laid eyes on each of them. I thought my heart was going to burst with love and joy. There's nothing better than their newborn snuggles, their baby coos and cuddles, their toddler giggles, and their little girl voices and embraces.

I'm turning 30.
I'm the soccer mom with the suburban, constant coffee mug in hand, with desires to buy the tacky Easter bunny wreath and be the cliche that stays in her sweats all day while folding laundry and watching her lovies play.
I'm the cook, the wife, the one with the fussing kids in the grocery store check out line.
I search for coupons, pour my littles milk, change hundreds of diapers...
...this is my life.
And I love it and couldn't ask for more!

So here I am, heart swirling with emotion and excitement from the night's gathering. My house is quiet, everyone is soundly dreaming. Here I sit, a woman joyfully grateful and blessed. As they all sleep, I thank the Father for His blessings over my life.
Thirty is going to be lovely!

Friday, February 25, 2011


Happy Friday to you!
Our week has been so good...and there's some little things that make it even better!
Homemade chocolate chip cookies are so good!
Adding some chocolate icing, peanut butter, and sprinkles makes it even better!

Black beans are good and good for you!
Adding some cumin, chili powder, salsa and cheese makes it even better!

Eating freshly baked cookies is good!
Enjoying spoon fulls of cookie dough...even better!

Looking forward to a good weekend with my lovelies and lots of even better moments!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

So maybe...

So maybe today was really spontaneous!

A sudden rush of inspiration (and the 3 cups of coffee) overtook my brain and I decided to rearrange some furniture and re do some rooms.
The best part, I spent nothing. Not a dime.

Emma's Room: Before


I used a diaper princess box for sorting Emma's princess stuff (great idea, thanks Mom) and grabbed some baskets from the kitchen.
So maybe my crazy-inspirational-impulsive mind went in search for more!
Our room: Before
(I switched around some pictures, lamps, added a candle and a throw blanket. I've been wanting a place for Chris and I to have our quiet times in the morning so the little ones don't wake up. Done.)
The day was rainy and chilly. I took my lovies to school and we scooped up Keaton on the way. He is such a delight and a blessing to us. We love you sweet one!

...and maybe we opted out of naps for some mud pie making.

So maybe our day's activities made us crash anyways.
So maybe I had this to-do list today that was barely touched and instead we took the day hour by hour.
And we loved it!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Her whispers

Powerful things tend to come in tiny packages...
dynamite that levels the ground, diamond rings that promise forever, a small rudder that steers a mighty vessel, the hint of jalapeno that sends your mouth into a fury.
My tiny one packs some serious power and presence. And we love it!
Sophie Lynn, she's my impulsive one, our Hulk, our loud Boo. She may be tiny but she can sure bring the fury.
...but not lately.

Lately, she's attempted a different approach...whispering. At first I thought "has she lost her voice?" or "is she sick?" Since when does this child whisper? Currently, when she really wants something, she couples intense persistence with a still, small, whisper. It brings me to a deep belly laughter!
Today she rattled through our list of movies, in her abbreviated version, speaking softly and quickly, pleading to watch one.
"Princess?" (no.)
"Dragon?" (no.)
"Buzz Light?" (no.)
She continued on throughout the day with the choices of candy, snacks, drinks...all with the sweetest whisper. Maybe she's shelving the tantrums for awhile...or maybe it's my laughing response of no that seems less shattering to her little ideas than a firm response. I'm not sure.
I adore my lovelies.

And this one...
...is oh so lovely.
Thank you for these precious ones!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011


Today was like any other ordinary day. Beginning the day in the dark, in the quiet. A silent alarm, a little reading, a quick shower, the rumbling of the coffee pot. The stirring of little ones. Asking myself a few times "Are they up yet?" Then sure enough, one by one, the little girls trickle out of their rooms and into the house. We can't wait to pick up the tiniest one out of her crib.
"Good morning mommy!" Oh how I love this.
We're off!
Breakfast, dressed little bodies, hair barrettes, sippy cups filled, diaper bag packed, car seats buckled.
Hello Day, here we come!
The morning...it's wonderfully full.

Playing with friends, giggling, sliding, biking. Let the fun begin!

She loves watching her sisters play. The north wind kept her inside today...but not tomorrow!
She'll be out there before I know it. I'll watch her play, slide, giggle...and it will be wonderful.
...but not just yet.
A little nap in her cozy place. Sweet dreams little bunny.

The focus of the kitchen, with loads of anticipation...when will we get to bake these Mommy?
Soon, very soon!
I'll let you in on a secret...mommy is just as excited!
A mess will be made, lots of dough won't make it to the cookie sheet, and then, we'll enjoy our warm, wonderfully cooked-with-love cookies.
How was your day? It was wonderful.

Monday, February 21, 2011


Randomness. I read this on a blog and thought it was a great word and a great title for this post.
Our week was great, busy, sunny, and fun. The weekend was a continuation of all of that...plus daddy was home! I feel like daddies miss a lot of the fun being at work all day so I love it when he gets to be with us, more than the 1-2 hours at night during the week. I think about the years to come when my girls are in school all day, every day. I'm not wanting those years to arrive any time soon. For now, I love their affections and attention all day long.
"Watch me mommy!" is a phrase and request I hear multiple times a day.
...and I love it every time.
The first scrape of the season, I'm sure knowing my girls there are many more to come! I tell my girls skinned up knees means you're playing hard, and that's always a good thing! Daddy was here for this little one and there's just something special about daddy's voice and hands that make it all better.

Earlier in the week we celebrated Asher's 2nd birthday! Brooke did such a great job creating the perfect dance party for him and his friends...and the grown ups!

Saturday afternoon we had a family rest time in our bed. All 5 of us piled in with lots of fluffy pillows, pacifiers, lovies, goldfish, sippy cups...anything anyone would possibly need. We watched a movie, we cuddled, we talked, we napped. It was really sweet.
My Alice happily slept on me. I did a lot of staring at her sweet face. I normally can't sit still and prefer to be on the go, busy, productive etc. However, I'm certain I could do this all day: lay in bed with my family and stare at my little one's faces, listen to their giggles, hold their tiny hands. Loved it.

While Chris worked at the OU basketball game, I took the girls to our neighbor's birthday party.
My Sophie Lynn, I just love your sweet face. I know it well.

Chris needed to work at the baseball game for a few innings so he took Emma and Sophie with him. They lovedit! The peanuts, the weather, cheering for OU, and time with Chris. I'm beginning to think they actually like watching baseball. :)
I love the intensity of Emma's face. So focused. Like father, like daughter.

We had a lovely weekend, I hope you did too!
I made this little discovery for a snack...bananas, chocolate chips, honey, and the best ingredient in the world...peanut butter. Goodness in a bowl. A great weekend snack while you watch your lovelies play!
Have a wonderful week!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Executive Decisions

Welcome to my office!
Here at the offices of Doke&Doke, we like to keep a professional environment. We like production. We like contribution to the gross national product.
Okay, not really and far from it...but I'll continue with the corporate theme!

Lunch appointments.
Our favorite place to commence being the First Baptist Park. There are many important agenda items...slides, swings, bouncing bridges...stuff like that.

The conference table.
We do a lot of important deals here. Plans and dreams for the day, activities to attend, high quality meals consisting of PB&J's, and many important tasks and masterpieces.

An associate's work space.
My associates are very hard working as you can see. There are various accomplishments and victories throughout the day.

My corner office view.
Ah yes, the business continues in our outdoor commons area.

I love being a mom and I love the blessing of being at home with them every day.
There are lots of decisions to be made...from the choice between making waffles and pancakes, to answering the self-question of how to respond to my child in her moment(s) of struggle so that my very words and actions would reflect how the Father sees her and communicate I believe in you sweetheart.
Forgoing productivity and sleep for late-night ice cream with friends. Deciding the night's menu based on how easy and fast it is to whip up with 3 littles at my feet. Choosing humility over pride to ask forgiveness from a tiny one for my unkind and harsh reactions.
The day is full of them...decisions and choices.
Some matter. Some don't. Some never get decided on.
Regardless, I am in love with my job and the executive decisions to be made.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Days of Grace

"There are no more good days and bad days...
there are only good days and days of grace." ~Graham Cooke
Yes Lord!
Thank goodness.
For me, it's compartmentalized. It's not an entire day, but moment by moment, hour by hour.

Here's some of the good in our day...
Scratching the plans on the schedule and swapping them for hours playing outside...
Watching my girls together, at-home mani/pedis, thinking about my date with Chris last night, smiling at the flowers he brought us while my lovelies nap.
A trip to the park with friends...
A sleeping bunny curled up on mommy ...

His grace is sufficient...thus, here are a few parts of grace...
My oldest melting and trantrumming (I know that's not a real word, but it should be) at the park after knocking over another child...
Thinking "What is that smell?" and realizing "It's me" after being outside with my kids all day, never mind the fact I actually showered this morning...
My mop falling apart half way through the job...
Realizing my car meeting the tree yesterday is actually worse than I thought...
The sweet hubby working 3 out of 7 nights this week...
I need grace. I don't deserve it, yet He still gives it to me. I was telling Chris the other day, how funny it is to listen to NFL players debrief at a press conference after a game. I know it's a profession, they work hard, they fight through injuries, they are away from family...but as I listen to any athlete explain what he was thinking when he fumbled on the 2 yard line, or, what his strategy was to throw such a perfect pass to lead his team to victory, I laugh.
I'd love to hear from a single mom, what her inspiration is to take care of kids, work 2 jobs, and tuck in her littles at night, get up and do it all over again the next day. I want to hear from a mom who sits with her child during chemo treatments and watches this little body fight to live, what should matter and what simply doesn't when you're raising babies. I would tune in every night to see a mom in Africa address the media when asked "How did it feel today when you walked 6 miles to bring home clean water for your 5 children?"
Grace. I am finding it's such a beautiful gift from the Father and I want it, lots of it. I know He sees mommies all over the world and He lavishly pours out His grace over us. That we may be encouraged, strengthened, joyful...and so that we can in return give grace to the little ones at our feet and in our arms.

"My grace is sufficient for you, My power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
2 Corinthians 12:9

Gingerbread Valentines {Emma}

Alice and I went by Emma's Valentine's Day party. I love going to her school events. It's so fun to watch her go through her little routines, emulate her teachers, play with friends.
Isaiah is very popular at our house. These 2 are pretty cute together!
Sweet Alice, I am loving my time with her. I had one on one time with each of my daughters this day, even if it was a few minutes, I relished in it! She's developing some cute cheeks that are oh so kissable!
Hope you had a wonderful Valentines!